That's a powerful feeling you're expressing, and I bet every abused teenager feels that way at some point. No one is to be trusted, and if anyone seems trustworthy that's just a fraud and it means he wants something. And what does he want? What they all want from me - sex.
I know you're not in the mood to be calmed down, and that's okay. I will just say you aren't alone or freaking out. Unfortunately, it's a truth about this stuff that in order to get past it we have to go straight through it, as you are doing. No short cuts.
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me. (Woody Guthrie)