You're doing a great job telling your story. It's good that you can tell when you need to take a break too. Nice going.
I'm sorry about the incident this morning. Remember though, it wasn't your fault that this happened. They went beyond what you wanted them to do. They crossed the line into abuse/rape, and you certainly did not ask for that kind of treatment regardless how they reacted afterwards.
For all that you've been through in your life, I definitely see you as a survivor. No, let me rephrase that, "You are a survivor."
I see recovery as a lifelong journey rather than a final destination, a journey, though, which can have many successes along the way.
WoR Alumnus - Hope Springs, OH, October 2009
My avatar is the farmhouse at the Hope Spring, OH WoR. It's a nice place.