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Introductions
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I know the pain you are talking about...I act out in very much the same way as you. I can see a lot of my actions in your words.
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Books, Music & Films for Survivors
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i, too will be listening to this audiobook. no doubt you will finish before me. i have never read this book. did not know much about it. this iscussion here has inspired me to check it out. always on the look out for a good book.
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Gay/Bi/Trans Survivors
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Originally Posted By: lapchinj....I can't have sex with her and I hate it when she whispers in my ear that she loves me so much and that she can't live without me. Nobody in my whole life said that to me, nobody.... I'm sorry but I have to rephrase w
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Family and Friends
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Hello, all. This is my first time on a website like this. Reason being is I'm seeing a guy who confessed to me that he has a hard time being open to someone because of having been a victim. He was victimized once as a young adult, and has never sough
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Spirituality and Survivors
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This is simply not true. 41 years old, devout christian as a child. Thrown to the wolves, neglected, ignored, bullied, and then developed homosexual feelings against my own dreams of being a good devoting christian. I've had a long and tortured lif
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Male Survivors
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I don't like mirrors or photos of myself too, for different reasons. Crossed eyed. I look at myself in the mirror and see 2 decrepit eyes looking every which way other but back at me. It's disturbing and disorienting. And when I choose to look at t
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HIV/AIDS
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Over 20 years poz here, fwiw. Particularly in a state like NJ you have a lot of options for free, anonymous testing and follow up if the test comes back positive. A sensitive question, but it would also help to know why you believe you might be poz
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Male Survivors
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Thanks Lancer, "past couple years it's been the ways she totally fucked up any chance I'd have for intimacy, solid career moves, etc." Ditto. I started becoming aware of her shortcomings much earlier on as well, but it has only been in t
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Male Survivors
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Originally Posted By: PoorsoftThey went way over the top, you had every right to be angry about it too. Their reasoning is no justifaction to treat you as if you were guilty. Don't take it personally, I'll be honest with you if I saw someone aimin
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Survivors of Female Abuse
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I don't talk about it on here much, but the one and only confirmed, corroborated instance of sexual abuse in my childhood was by a 9 year old girl who molested me when I was 3/4. I know of it purely from my mother's memory of it, as she was the one w
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Male Survivors
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Originally Posted By: JudeI'm kind of remote from mostof you guys, but would like to have some real face2face someday. I met a guy in AA who shared with me that he had CSA in his past, so I thought I might have found a buddy. But when I tried a fol
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Male Survivors
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Sorry to hear you can't control the flying. I get flying dreams at least once a week, and IT IS BOSS!!! I have gotten better and better at it the more I do it. It's almost like my subconscious mind looks at all the problems I'm faced with and says &q
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Books, Music & Films for Survivors
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jupiter
by victor-victim
@ 05/16/13 12:45 AM
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Spirituality and Survivors
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your words are wings with which you will fly. i congratulate as you liberate.
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Poetry
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i can hear you. i am not no one. i can feel you. go on. scream.
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Male Survivors
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I've been the same for my entire life. Sex to me was "robotic". I just performed. I now know it was because during my abuse, I "performed"...I had to or else. I learned to detach myself emotionally obviously because of the hor
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Poetry
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---------- The UPS ---------- LIVIN' IN THE SHADOW OF ANNIHILATION causes me no stress PANDEMONIUM RUNS THE NATION i ain't depressed THE RISE AND FALL OF CIVILIZATION leaves me unimpressed SITTING PRETTY IN A SH!TTY SITUATION i couldn't care l
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Health and Wellbeing
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Originally Posted By: cant_rememberMy breakdowns have been situations where I am consciously aware that my emotions are completely out of control but I have no ability to stop them. I am able to tell another person: "This is happening to me,&q
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Male Survivors
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I wasn't really sure how to title this thread...or, frankly, whether to even post it given many of the horrible stories we read here. I don't know that there's any point except this is my story of healing. A lot of you know I was raised by an abusi
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Male Survivors
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Originally Posted By: concerned_husky To give a bit of context - I found myself replaying a lot of the abuse I went through, and I hated the fact that every time that happened, I felt like the defenseless, powerless, vulnerable child again. Husky:
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Male Survivors
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Can anyone relate to this?,, Most of the time I don't know what to type here, everything you said I can relate to ...
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Male Survivors
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jwebster, its okay to ramble with your thoughts. I know for certain as I began to share here, that so much was inside that a ramble was the best I could do. That's how you begin to make sense of the thoughts you are having. And its great that you
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Gay/Bi/Trans Survivors
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Originally Posted By: Chase EricS....None of them dealt with CSA. None of them dealt with any characters having crushes on members of the same sex. It ran like a perfect utopia ....... We've had a tough time, haven't we? It's tough to mourn somet
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Male Survivors
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Hi Eric. See, I knew it would be an incredible post! You certainly weren't "babbling" and in fact, to me, expressed some realizations that were incredibly profound, even if I couldn't necessarily relate it to my own experience. I think we c
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Gay/Bi/Trans Survivors
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Hey guys, am I missing something, did we just do a time warp or am I dead ??? Peace, Rainbows, Love & Healing Jeff
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