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Originally Posted By: pufferfishI've found more references to the clandestine services experimenting with administering LSD to children in the 1950's. There is a book, ACID: A New Secret History of LSD, by David Black, Ken Thomas. http://www.amazon
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Poetry
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anger
by victor-victim
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NEAR the POINT of no RETURN MAYBE SECONDS till it HAPPENS i'm a WALKING TIME BOMB hear me TICKING TALKING BIG BANG THEORY BIG BANG! HIGH PRESSURE ... TIGHT WIRE HAIR TRIGGER ... DETONATOR i'm a WALKING TIME BOMB hear me TICKING TALKING BIG
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Male Survivors
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My main thing about being abused and how I am now, is I would rather kill myself than have another human being to go thru what I or us are going thru now.. what I'm saying I couldn't abuse some kid and live with myself like the perp that did what he
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Male Survivors
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Comfort zone, I go to work go home feel lonley, isolation is my big problem, have issue talking to people. My biggest problem I don't think/feel I could be intermet with a female, had sex with a female about 10 years ago and didn't feel anything and
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Introductions
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Dear Man of the house 1. Welcome 2. Often we mark such disclosure with a statement of "trigger." 3. I moved to D. C. when I was 13, and my mother's friend only violated me for 7 months. I lived off Tenley Circle. Thank God he never
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Male Survivors
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Hi Little Big Man Yes, I understand, and yes we create delusions of our power to do things that are beyond us. We (or at least I) thought if I didn't have the power then I was dead meat. Even though my father never sexually abused me (though mo
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Introductions
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At age nine my father left my mother and his last words to me were "Your the man of the house now take care of your mother and your brother and sister." So I did just that as best I could. I got to work doing things for neighbors like mowi
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Family and Friends
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Hi Pie. I'm glad you have found a better path. I hope a friend of mine will find that sooner rather than later.
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Male Survivors
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Wow. Thank you for sharing this. You just described a lot of my thinking patterns. And of course, I have exactly the same emotional isolation - "no one to check things out with". Thanks Originally Posted By: little big manHi, I gr
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Family and Friends
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Loving my husband WAS the easiest thing I have ever done, even though the abuse was horrid. Letting him go WAS the most painful thing I have endured, even worse than abuse he bestowed on me. Loving myself is now the most liberating thing I have exp
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Male Survivors
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Getting out of isolation is very possible, just got to be willing enough to try something new. !2 step meetings.. I go to alanon, aa, saa, and dual recovery. I am around alot of people who have gotten to know me. Looking for one person to fufill my n
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Male Survivors
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Do ever find that your still in denial of the pain? I can tell by the way you post your topic it speaks for itself in its own words. I've been down that road many times in my life where I've tried to find a way to speak up about the pain I've been th
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Male Survivors
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Little Big Man, Yeah I know....sucks don't it...finding out that the shit we worked so hard on was not really doing it??? GOOD FOR YOU man...I am proud that you can admit that. My bullshit doesn't work either.... Geoff
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Male Survivors
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Publius, I have quietly gently nursed a purple hatred for my incestuous family for many years. When My T explained the consequences of my hatred, that I can at long last, no longer contain it...That in spite of my efforts, the task of controlling
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Introductions
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Thanks for your replies guys. I've got a question. Why is my shame so heavy suddenly? How do I make it go away?
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Off Topic
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I wrote this in a PM to another MSer this morning. This is what's really on my mind, and what's running me. I was comparing myself to him: "Reading other people's stories is easy for me, yet my mind went back to selling myself on the job, ha
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Male Survivors
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It's hard to gauge how a person will respond to disclosure. In my experience most people are uncomfortable with the subject matter but still sympathetic. The "vampire myth" still resonates to this day despite the fact that most survivors
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Male Survivors
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Hi, I grew up in a home whre both my parents had molested me and other relitives outside of the home. I was isolated emotionally. I had no one to check things out with, get perspective no one on my side or not trusting others to be on my side. I
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Male Survivors
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it is a pretty common feeling man. I struggle with that myself. each of my abusers were just bullies in various forms. babysitter,hospital worker,just an ass hat at the school who made believe he was a friend. I even struggle with my mom who didn't s
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Introductions
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Welcome Back Fthorns, I am a Stepper too. Geoff
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Climb1975, As an incest and Child Sexual Abuse Survivor (CSA Survivor) I had lots of trouble facing what happened. I found a really good therapist referenced on the root pages of the website here. I know you are putting a nice face on what happene
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Family and Friends
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Dearest RemainingHopeful I feel for you, your story resounds as my own. I would apply to the legal and social system for supervised visits even only on the grounds of his drinking. Do not put your little one in harms way, even if its proved to onl
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Male Survivors
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Sometimes there is a lot of ambivalence out there regarding perps. This is completely understandable given the nature of many survivors' relationship with their abuser. Whether he/she was family member or a friend or some trusted person in his life
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Male Survivors
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Hi everyone I have not been on the site awhile. I go to Alanon meetings alot and sometimes I will referance that my parents molested me. I worry afterward trying to read minds, thinking they assume im a perpetrator. I have had some people assume th
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Male Survivors
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I am happy you have made so much progress and even moreso that you appreciate your accomplishment without trying to minimalize it. The beauty of your recovery, and I suppose all of ours, is that it elevates the survivors while inspiring others to do
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